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21 guns

Beautiful song by Green Day. Caught my heart when I first heard it. I don’t know why but listening to this song triggers so much emotions. I just love the lyrics (:

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Do you know what’s worth fighting for,
When it’s not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away,
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride,
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You’re in ruins.
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When you’re at the end of the road,
And you lost your sense of control,
And your thoughts have taken their toll,
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul,
Your faith walks on broken glass,
And the hangover doesn’t pass,
Nothing’s ever built to last,
You’re in ruins.
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When it’s time to live and let die,
And you can’t get another try.
Something inside this heart has died,
You’re in ruins.
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Don’t give up on me

After a torturous 1 and a half week, mid year exams have finally come to an end! :D Oh well I screwed up this time (when did I not screw up anyway? haha!). Results will be used for banding of classes for term 3 and it really sucks to know you’re gonna get into the lowest band, not for one subject, but for all subjects mind you.

Yes it’s that bad. How can anyone not get  Us after leaving 1/4 of Physics paper blank, forgoing a 15m and a 10m essay question for Econs paper 2, not completing 40m worth of questions for Maths paper 1, leaving a whole 20m question blank for Chem paper 3, not doing a 10m and 8m question for Econs paper 2, and blindly shading the answers (without even reading the questions) for 15 MCQs from Chem paper 1 when the teacher said time’s up, stop writing. I swear I am not exaggerating.

It all boils down to time mangagement. I can’t complete most of my papers. It’s not that I gave up halfway because I didn’t know how to do, but I just didn’t have enough time to even attempt some of the questions. Maybe my brain just can’t think fast enough? Or my hands can’t write fast enough? Or maybe my brain and hands are so uncoordinated my hands can’t write what my brain is thinking, and my brain can’t tell my hands what to write. Maybe it’s just me..that I’m not cut out for JC at all. Argh! No negative thoughts no negative thoughts. I know I can’t give up now. I got myself into this shit and no one can get me out of it except myself. I just need to keep believing that I can do it, even when the whole world doubts me. It’s gonna be a tough 4 months. I really hope the school doesn’t disallow me from taking As because of my results (they did that to some of my seniors last year). I need the chance, badly.

On a brighter note, post mids were spent with Jolene and Xin Ying lunching at Swensens, getting a hair fringecut, watching ‘Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaurs’ in 3D, shopping and chilling out at Starbucks (: Wonderful afternoon spent with the lovely girls, plus the funny encounter with a group of ACS(I) guys, hahahaha :D

It’s my first time watching a movie in 3D and I must say it’s great! The fact that its 3D makes you feel more ‘connected’ to the characters in the movie, haha!  And trust me, it’s not a childish movie to watch, in fact, I think adults will love it too! A combination of comedy, adventure and heart-warming scenes of the importance of family. Definitely a worthwhile animation to catch (:

 

P.S. I had a very traumatising experience on MSN yesterday. Don’t know why such sick bastards exist.

It’s you and me, against the world

Love this quote :)

I figured out that studying can be something happy too, if we choose to make it enjoyable for ourselves.

Press on for the remaning papers people!

Start all over

Too much to take.

It’s been long since I cried so hard.

It feels good though.

Time to move on.

And pick myself up.